Learning to live with loss
There’s still time to register for my Free Grief Writing Workshop and 6-Week Writing Series for Women!
The weight of loss has become a constant companion in recent years, pressing on me again and again. Each time, it brings me to my knees. Yet, instead of pushing me to be strong or pretending to move forward, these moments have shown me the profound importance of listening, resting, and nurturing my resilience.
When the weight of loss becomes too much to bear, it’s okay to not be okay. Grief doesn’t demand us to rush or to hide our pain. There’s no need to force a smile or spiritually bypass the discomfort. Sometimes, all we can do is feel it, in its rawest form, and allow it to move through us.
It’s not always easy—especially when our hearts are shattered, our minds are resistant, or our bodies carry the weight of unprocessed emotion. But the body knows when it’s too weary to rise, when the pain is so deep that the only thing left to do is to stop, surrender, and simply be.
In the first moments after my husband left, my heart seemed suspended. My breath felt shallow. The storm of grief lingered for days, weeks, months—the reality of his absence sinking into my bones. And even now, it continues to settle, finding new ways to surface.
When the company I had dedicated nearly two decades to suddenly unraveled, it felt like the future I had worked toward slipped through my fingers. I was adrift in an overwhelming sea of uncertainty.
There are mornings when I wake restless and heavy with despair—grieving a life shaped by circumstances I didn’t choose.
This past year, I’ve shed more tears than I thought possible. For my father, for Jax, for my husband, for lost dreams, and for a company that no longer exists.
Tears that once stayed held back now flow more freely. They release the weight I’ve carried for so long, unburdening my soul, drawing me closer to healing, to the present, and ultimately to wholeness.
Through it all, my heart remains near, patiently waiting for me to notice and reconnect with its rhythm, the pulse of life that beats steadily within me.
On my nature walks, when everything I’ve practiced—the art of being present, the act of focusing on the moment—aligns, I pause. And there, before me, is a bluebird perched on a branch. Its wings float softly from one branch to the next. They, too, seek shelter—just as I do. They protect their nests, just as I work to protect my heart, rebuilding my life, piece by piece.
I’ve come to understand that grief is a personal journey, one that requires courage and an open heart—courage to break through the conditioning of sadness and the resistance to pain.
In the silence of sorrow, we often find the answers our souls need. The body’s wisdom leads us through the toughest times, teaching us how to be present with emotions and find peace in the uncertainty of it all.
Even in the darkest moments, life offers glimpses of awe. Tears of sorrow are not here to harm us but to open us—reconnecting us with life’s small miracles, reminding us that relief awaits.
Through tears, nature, and both internal and external support, I have learned to reconnect with the rhythm of life, deepening my resilience, capacity, and trust in my own heart.
Healing is not linear. It’s a gentle unfolding—one step, one breath, one moment at a time.
In these small, quiet moments of ease, I’ve learned that even in grief, there is growth.
I am learning to honor my pace and to trust the process.
I am learning that healing is not about erasing the past, but purifying the lens for which we view it through Yoga and allowing it to coexist with the present.
And one day, with time, practice, and acceptance of what is, I know the grief will no longer feel as heavy. And when it returns, as it inevitably will, I’ll trust that I have the strength to carry it and the wisdom to surrender to its sadness, its holiness, and its loving embrace. To hold it, and simply let it be.
Free Grief Writing for Women Workshop
I warmly invite you to join me for a Free Grief Writing Workshop for Women on February 13, 2025, at 6:00 PM PST. This will be a sacred space where we won’t seek to “fix” grief, but instead, we will cultivate a compassionate relationship with it.
The workshop is completely free and open to all women. No prior writing experience is needed—simply come with an open heart and a willingness to explore your grief.
To learn more, click here. To reserve your spot, click below:
6-week Grief Writing Series for Women
I am offering a 6-week grief writing container for women, starting February 20th, online. You can register and learn more about this in-depth practice here:
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If you know a woman who is navigating grief or may benefit from this class or my upcoming series, please consider forwarding this newsletter and encouraging her to reach out to me for more information or to register. I would be grateful.
